My best friend and i are quickly growing apart. i dont even know really how it got to this point. Shes been my best friend for years, and my cousin for 18.. Her life revolves around her boyfriend, mine revolves around just trying to get by. Going through each day hoping that something doesnt crush me or force me to fall asleep crying because of everything going on with my family , and school, and.. everything. And she gets everything handed to her on a silver platter. I dont really know whats going to come of me and her.


I spend a portion of almost every day with my friend Jenn. Shes always been someone who i had way too much in common with , its just easy, and comfortable with her. something tells me that this may be a factor in my deteriorating friendship with my cousin. its just so much easier to stick with someone who can relate to me so well, and thats jenn.



in other news, i went to a party with jenn a few nights ago, and half of my dads employees were there. one of them, who is by all means a "stud" , decided that we should makeout. whoa! whats going on here. i go years without being noticed, and then i graduate highschool and people see me? i mean, HEY, im not complaining! its just odd to me sometimes. here and there i have to blink to see if im dreaming, haha. oh my. ups and downs, strikes and gutterballs, per usual.




ciao lovers, until we meet again...